Day 2: Afternoon

Ughh... I am soo fat  cant even look at myself anymore
I want to break my mirror
But then I wont have this fat person looking right back at me
Reminding me that I am indeed ugly and way overweight.
Im 5'10 and 145.4 pounds... My BMI is an ugly number: 20.9!!!
I'm not even in the teens yet D:...
But I will be 90 pounds one day... Its the perfect number
My BMI at that point will be 12.9
I will be beautiful, thin, and I will be the ultimate thinspo <3
But until then I'll train nonstop.
I won't eat over 500 calories a day at the most.

I haven't gotten the hang of calculating calories right off the bat
But the ugly approximation for my lunch was about 200 calories
So no more food for the rest of the day...
I promised nothing over 400 and I went over -_-
Tomorrow will be easier
I have school and my parents wont be watching me eat, so I wont.
I'll drink water and chew gum and that's it.
No breakfast, no lunch, and nothing over 300 calories for dinner.
Quick question: Is it ok to drink diet dr. pepper? i had two sips and I felt guilty after!
Let me know in the comments please.
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I need all the support I can get :)
Forever and Always,
Charlotte <3